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Why I absolutely refuse to “regulate my nervous system”
Who is to define, exactly, the geometries of our emotional bodies…when there are so many different ways to tend to something - someone - beloved?
![Joy: Our Companion With A Hundred Faces](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5d670b6cdf9c620001db47e7/1677625793992-04PUQWSX07V3XADZS4H6/7a639c69-1146-e56d-a3a4-6c4f61ba6fdd.jpg)
Joy: Our Companion With A Hundred Faces
On what dwells in the dark crevices of our psyches and the ways our Shadows may surprise us.
![Thresholds of Grief & Joy](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5d670b6cdf9c620001db47e7/1672519407453-UBEEL1AVZZHTANVL0KD6/door.jpg)
Thresholds of Grief & Joy
Final thoughts on my greatest teacher in 2022 and the power of alchemized desires.
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Thanksgivings & Misgivings
Seasonal reflections on gratitude from the depths of a decidedly un-festive goblin cave.
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Dancing through conversations when everything is happening all at once
Given the rollercoaster of various news, events, and the general fatigue that the last few years have brought, I want to talk about navigating emotional burnout…
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Courage, comfort, and 3 questions
As we enter into these early weeks of January, I want to pose three questions through which to reflect on 2021 and welcome the months to come…
![On New Years magic & the stubbornness of human hearts](https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5d670b6cdf9c620001db47e7/1641414392907-KH5JWJSAY07VOVQXXCW1/pexels-mikhail-nilov-6526177.jpg)
On New Years magic & the stubbornness of human hearts
This time of year is always very dear to my heart - like many born in the Soviet Union, I grew up celebrating New Years as the crowning holiday of winter.